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Please make
sure to read my other theories before
reading this one, otherwise this one won’t make sense to you!
Let’s go:
I’ve already talked
about Euphoria a little in one of my posts:
So, now I will focus on Euphoria!
As we already know, Euphoria is the prologue of the Love Yourself series.
But what is this prologue about and where is it in the BTS theory/plot
timeline?
Remember my Love Yourself
explanation?:
So basically, with Love Yourself, we went back to the beginning.
Before we had Love Yourself and all, we already knew what the beginning of this
story looked like since we have the other prologue:
Even though in this prologue, we see their memories and happy times
together from Jin’s point of view and in his dream world, we know that these things
did happen:
That’s how we have the prologue of WINGS etc. Then right after YNWA, Jin
went back in time once again and Love Yourself started. This is where we got
another prologue – the prologue of the Love Yourself series. That being
Euphoria.
Though, there is one thing that both the old prologue and the new prologue
Euphoria have in common: they both show us the memories of the boys together.
But in Euphoria we don’t see the memories as an illusion or as part of Jin’s
dream wolrd. Instead, we see them actually happening in the real world because here
in this prologue, Jin is not dead.
In the old prologue, we saw the memories – the happy times – as a part
of Jin’s dream world/new reality because
Jin was already dead and he just wanted to re-live these moments. Then the
story moved on with Wings and YNWA. Then Jin went back in time once more to
before he died and before his relationship with his girlfriend failed. And that
was the start of Love Yourself.
That’s why in Euphoria, the prologue of Love Yourself, we see those happy
times really happening since Jin is
not dead. They are not memories but the actual present. Jin is not dead and
those happy times are not a part of his dream world/new reality, but they are
normal events in the real world.
If this has confused you right now, don’t worry, because as we move on,
you will understand better what I mean. 😊
But for now, just to make sure that what I’m saying is clear I decided to
use my amazing paint skills once more
and tried to visualize what I just explained:
It is clear that this
Is the same as this, right?
Here, I just separated Wings & LY.
Now moving on to the next step:
This is what I meant with my explanation/paragraph above:
I hope this helped you a little. My
amazing paint skills.
Moving on!
Now that we know Euphoria’s purpose, we can start to analyze it.
At first, it might not
seem that way but Jin and Jungkook are the main focus in this video. I mean
when it comes to JK its pretty obvious since he’s singing but I’ll explain why
Jin is important as well.
(Jin stands out quite often in the mv)
First,
let’s focus on the lyrics. The lyrics make it seem as if Jungkook is talking to
someone:
It might
not seem as obvious as it is after reading only these three lines, but you’ll
realize as we move on, that he’s talking to someone.
But who is he talking to?
He is talking to Jin. The only other person who sticks out in this video and
has and an extremely important role in the theory. There are many things in the
lyrics and in the video that hint at their “conversation” or “connection”.
Let’s start
with the lyrics:
EUPHORIA:
Euphoria
Euphoria
Take my hands now
You are the cause of my euphoria
Euphoria
Euphoria
Close the door now
When I’m with you I’m in utopia
One of
the things Jungkook is talking about is that he is “euphoric”. Now, as we
already know from his solo Begin, his
emotions depend on his brothers – the other boys.
In Begin he says:
So basically, the reason why he is happy is because of the boys –
especially Jin. And that’s why he is “talking to” Jin in this song.
Did you wander looking for a dream erased like
rainbow
It’s different from a plain word like fate
You’re looking at the same place with me with a
pain in your eyes
Won’t you please stay in dreams
(I
always like to kinda “rephrase” the lyrics so that they are clearer for me)
He’s talking about how a dream is different from plain fate. Meaning that a
dream is much more complex, beautiful and colourful than our plain fate. Probably
because in dreams, we have our own perfect scenarios, achieve our goals, stay
with the people we love and are happy. But fate is what is meant to happen to
us. Fate is what destroys our dreams, can take away our loved ones and make us
unhappy.
Even
though Jin and Jungkook are looking at the same place, Jin has pain in his
eyes, whereas Jungkook doesn’t. Noticing that pain, Junkook wants Jin to stay
in dreams.
Meaning
that: during a happy moment, Jungkook notices the pain in Jin’s eyes. (Why does
Jin have pain in his eyes? – will be explained) Jungkook assumes that Jin is
thinking about the fact that these happy moments won’t last forever (= fate)
that’s why he tells him to stay in the dream. He doesn’t want Jin to think
about fate and what will happen, instead he wants him to live in dream and continue
being happy (getting rid of that pain).
This
might show how young, innocent and inexperienced Jungkook is because of the
fact that he just focuses on living the dream and not considering reality or “fate”.
The sea
can be heard from far away
By crossing the dream and going over the woods
Go to the place that is becoming vivid
Take my hands now
You are the cause of my euphoria
Over the woods:
in a note from V we get to know that there are woods right where the sea is, so
with “crossing the dream and going over the woods” he is actually describing
the way to the sea.
The sea: a special place for the boys as
seen in prologue, Highlight Reel, the Notes, their songs etc. In the video to
Love Yourself Wonder we can also see the boys at the sea. It’s a place where
they made many happy memories together.
JK is
telling Jin to go to the sea, not alone but together with him (because: take my
hands now) because, as said before, he wants Jin to “stay in the dream”.
Euphoria
Euphoria
Take my hands now
You are the cause of my euphoria
Even if the desert cracks
Even if someone shakes this world
Don’t let go of the hand you’re holding
Please don’t wake up from the dream
No
matter what happens, please don’t stop dreaming and being happy. Even if
someone shakes your world (=> desert = world, will be clear later on), don’t
stop dreaming. Jungkook wants Jin to continue following him to the dream (sea,
forest => happy moments), he wants him to believe that these happy moments
will never disappear and that they will stay together.
You are the sun that rose again in my life
The return of my childhood dreams
I don’t know what this feeling is
Perhaps I’m also in a dream
Dream is a blue mirage in the desert
From deep inside of me, a priori
I’m so happy I can’t breathe
My surroundings become more and more transparent
We know that the reason why
Jungkook feels euphoric is because of the boys and Jin. He compares Jin (who he
associates with euphoria) with his childhood dream, meaning that his childhood
dream also made him feel euphoric. But he also says that he doesn’t really know
what that feeling is. So, this makes it clear for us that Jungkook actually
can’t “name” or exactly say what he is feeling because he hasn’t really
experienced it before. Yes, his childhood dream did make him feel somewhat
“euphoric” but the thing with Jin and the boys is actually happening, it is not a dream. He actually has a family. But
since the only thing close to euphoria that he has felt was caused by his
childhood dream, he compares his
situation right now to it. Then he compares his childhood dream with a “blue
mirage in the desert” and says that it’s a priori (=> something that he
knows deep inside of him without actually experiencing it).
1. a priori: even though he has
never “experienced” that dream (that dream never happened), he felt something
close to euphoria. He knows that his dream makes him happy, even though the
dream never happened. So basically, by being able to dream (even if it doesn’t
come true), he knows that he can be happy.
2. comparing the dream with a blue
mirage in the desert: The desert is supposed to be the world (because here, the
desert is seen as a negative thing, as something dry, bare and challenging, and
a place where you can easily lose your way/path; just like the real world): And
in that desert there is a blue mirage (=illusion) which is represented by the
dream. While waiting in the dry desert, there is a blue mirage that gives you
hope but can also deceive you. So basically, while trying to find a path in the
real world/trying to survive in the real world, you “find/have” a dream. A
dream that gives you hope but can also deceive you. When it comes to Jungkook,
that dream gives him hope but it deceived Jin (that blue mirage deceived him
into thinking that he would be able to be with the boys forever. And he clung
onto that illusion/dream so hard that he started rejecting reality. He decided
to live “in that blue mirage/illusion” => dream world during WINGS). Because even if there is an illusion (a blue mirage) like that, it is not real,
it does not exist and you still are in the desert with nothing. That blue
mirage is unreachable. Just like how the dream is unattainable.
But Jungkook doesn’t realize that
and keeps focusing on the dream. Whereas Jin “stares” at the dream with a pain
in his eyes because he knows that it can never be real and knows that it only
deceives you.
I hear the ocean from far away
I walk across the dream over the forest
And go towards there as it gets clearer
Take my hands now
You are the cause of my euphoria
Euphoria
Euphoria
Take my hands now
You are the cause of my euphoria
Close the door now
When I’m with you I’m in utopia
“Close the
door now”: might be JK telling Jin to “close the door” and not go back,
stay/come with him in his momentarily happy, euphoric, dreamlike reality and
fully relish it. (though, this can be interpreted in many ways) Because when JK
is with Jin he’s in utopia. The perfect place is by Jin’s side.
So
basically, the lyrics are about Jungkook feeling euphoric when he is with Jin
and the others, that he cannot believe that this is reality because it is so
amazing and dreamlike. He wants to continue believing that his life won’t
change and that it will always be so dreamlike. But he also notices that Jin
doesn’t feel the same because Jin knows that it’s going to end one day. He
knows that there will be a moment where everything will change. An incident
that will happen no matter what
because its fate.
What
incident?
In Wings Jin committed suicide, Suga and Jungkook fought and Jungkook got in a
car accident. At the end of Wings, Jin goes back in time – to the point before
the boys drifted apart and chose evil – and that’s how we get YNWA. But there
is one thing that doesn’t change. Jungkook’s car accident which kills him. That
accident is the only thing that Jin cannot change. So, Jin goes back again and
that’s how we get the Love Yourself series.
The reason
why Jin has pain in his eyes during their happy moments in Euphoria – the
prologue – is because he knows that something will most probably go wrong. He
is scared. He is unsure and has a hard time believing that they will be
together forever. He cannot live in a dream world because he knows what
disaster awaits him and the boys.
Soooo, now
that we finished talking about the lyrics, let’s start with the video!
But before
we do that one more thing:
There are
many parts/aspects/scenes of the Euphoria prologue that is the same – or almost
same – as the old prologue (by that I mean the on stage one lol). It is very
hard to explain the difference between the old prologue and Euphoria. It is
clear that they both have the same purpose. But Euphoria is an alternate
version of the old prologue because of Jin time travelling.
In the
beginning of Euphoria, we see scenes from the old prologue, I need U and RUN.
This is from the prologue, right when V jumped into the water and also committed suicide in the real world.
I need U – Jungkook getting hit.
Jimin trying to drown himself.
V stabbing his dad
Jhope overdosing
Suga and the fire.
☹
V having killed his dad.
There were
all important scenes where we saw the boys suffering. But do you notice how
there is always this blue line? There is no exact explanation of those lines
but I am guessing that they are supposed to indicate that all of this is from
the past. That all of it is from WINGS and won’t happen again because Jin goes
back in time. Maybe they’re trying to show that these moments are being
“replayed” or that Jin is reflecting. It could also indicate that Jin is time
travelling again.
One more
thing. They showed V’s death but not Jungkook’s. This could hint at the fact
that Jungkook’s death has got nothing to do with the unfortunate events from
WINGS, instead, it’s his inevitable fate.
Moving on
to the scenes that I find really interesting:
These
scenes are from RUN. It’s supposed to show the moment Jin realised that V is
dead. But do you notice how Jin’s scene is the only scene that does not have a
blue line? We said that the blue line represents the fact that the scene
happened in the past and that it won’t happen again because Jin goes back in time.
If by going back in time he “undoes” or “deletes” that moment/memory then it
would mean that none of the other boys would remember it. For them, it never
happened (since Jin went back in time). But even if the boys do not remember,
Jin knows it all. Because he is the one who decides to go back to “correct” his
mistakes or make sure that something horrible doesn’t happen. That’s why when
we see Jin – or better said, when we see the moment Jin realised V had died (in
WINGS) – then we do not see the blue line. Because even if Jin is only
reflecting on everything that has happened until now, while the boys can forget
what happened to them, Jin can never forget the things he witnessed. That’s why
he will also never forget the moment he realised that V had died (in WINGS)
Moving on:
This is the
moment Jin goes back in time to prevent the things from WINGS etc happening. Because
now, instead of the bloody hands, we see Jin holding the flowers. What does him
holding the flowers mean?
We know that in this theory, Lilies have a very special meaning. They’re a sign
of innocence and represent the boys while they were still innocent (before
Jin’s death).
Until now, we have seen Jin holding those six Lily petals in I need U, Awake
etc.
Because when they are in his hands, the petals
– the boys – stay unharmed and innocent but in WINGS the moment he lets them
down, they burn.
That’s
because when Jin (in Wings) let them down/left them alone by committing
suicide, they started to lose their innocence by having bad thoughts and doing
evil things (to get rid of the pain of having lost someone). That’s why the
petals that represent the boys during their innocent times, burn.
Back to
Euphoria. The bloody hands are replaced by Jin holding the six petals in his
hands. Jin decides to go back again.
But then he puts the petals on the ground again, though this time they do not
burn.
He goes to the window. Until now, the window represented Jin’s chance to “fly away” and be free by accepting his death and the fact that he cannot join the boys anymore. And each time it looked like this:
The window is blocked. Because Jin could not just “fly away” and accept his death since he knew that the boys were suffering because of him. So he kept on time travelling to correct the mistakes etc. And here in Euphoria, we see him looking out of the window, but this time it’s not blocked because this is not the place from where he can “fly away” to be free, this is the place from where he can go back in time. Basically, these are two different rooms.
What I mean
is:
Do you notice how the room with the blocked window – which represents that Jin
wants to be free and accept his death but he cannot do so because the boys are
suffering and he needs them – is almost completely white?
In contrast to that, the room with the normal window – which represents the
fact that Jin decided to fight against his fate by going back in time and
trying to “undo” his mistakes – is almost completely black.
Why? Because by choosing to go back, he doesn’t want to accept his fate and
fights against it. And that is the wrong path. It’s not good, because you can
never undo everything. That’s why the room is black.
The other room is white because its supposed to be the “right, good” room, in
the sense of the room that enables him to walk the good path. But since deep
down he desires to choose the bad path and go back in time, the window of that
white, innocent, good room is blocked. Because even if there is a part of him
that wants to be good and free, the desire to stay with the boys is stronger.
Moving on.
This is what he sees. This is from I need U, Suga’s room that he set on fire.
And then he stretches his hand out.
As if he wants
to intervene.
And then suddenly:
Jin is
back. He goes back in time and suddenly, things change. Suga is saved by
Jungkook. Jhope is held back by Jimin. And Jin is here for RM.
During almost all of these scenes, besides Jin’s, we see a blue glitch. That
glitch indicates that the moment/situation of the others was changed. By whom?
By Jin.
Also you’ve probably noticed how both the glitch and the line from earlier are
both blue. That’s because both were caused by Jin and I guess them being the
same colour is supposed to indicate that. Just like with the lines, we don’t
see a blue glitch when it comes to
Jin himself.
And that’s how the Love Yourself series starts.
Moving on.
He feels
euphoric because he has the boys and is not alone. This roof or place is very
important for Jungkook. He associates it with his happy times.
Then instead
of this:
We now have this:
Another change. V does not kill his
father. Jhope is with him.
The bloodstains are disappearing which is another proof that V did not kill his
father in the Love Yourself series. However, if you look at his hand you’ll see
that he has bandages. Because of the notes we know that – in the love yourself
series – v was overcome by his anger and lunged at his dad to stab him, but he
“missed”, fell down and cut his hand with the broken bottle. (translation of the notes: Twitter @snowflake_dee) That’s why he has a bandage.
Jin (and
also Jungkook a second later) lowering his hand.
I think Jin doing that is supposed to indicate that he has now “intervened” – in the sense of, he went back in time and has
now “stopped” the bad things from happening.
That’s why
we also see him smiling here:
If you watch the video, then you’ll notice that he seems relieved and also his
eyes are read, probably because he cried.
The next
scenes are these:
Jimin in
hospital clothes in what looks like to be the cafeteria of the hospital.
It looks
like he’s been released from the hospital (running towards the exit) and he’s
leaving it with the boys. It can also be that he’s just taking a break from the
hospital or is celebrating his birthday or something like that. What’s sure is
that he is leaving the hospital with the boys by his side. Before I move on:
why even is Jimin in the hospital?
That was
explained in the notes:
He has some
kind of illness. But it hasn’t been said what exactly.
Then we see
this:
We see two
different situations. One where he is leaving the hospital by himself. And
another one where he is with the boys. Because of the notes we know that there
is a time in the hospital that Jimin spends alone – so basically the boys do
not appear. The scene from above could be a representation of that time. Then
in the notes, we also find out that later on, the boys join him to get him out
of there. This again might be represented by the scene above where all of them
are together and getting out of that hospital.
I think
those scenes where they are leaving the hospital together in contrast to Jimin
being alone is supposed to be something like a transition to the rest of this
video – since the rest only consists of happy moments.
Moving on:
This is the
scene that follows after the boys’ hospital scene. Does this remind you of
something?
This is
from the other prologue.
I said
before:
The fact
that they show V lying on that mattress in Euphoria is another indication at
the fact that Euphoria is the prologue of the Love Yourself series. Forget
about the meaning behind him lying on that mattress for a sec and just focus on
the demonstration of both of the mattress scenes from euphoria and the first
prologue. Both scenes are almost the
exact same with a few differences. Which is supposed to show us that Euphoria
is almost the same as the first prologue – with a few differences. One of the
differences is this, which I explained before:
However,
you need to know that even though it might seem similar, the plots that Euphoria and the old prologue introduce are both
different. So the stores are mainly
different from each other:
Euphoria: Love yourself series => has a different plot than the old prologue: WINGS/YNWA
Moving on.
They all
seem so cute and happy right?
right?
:’)
RiGht?
:’)
RIGHT?
:’)
Beautiful.
As you can
see, Jin is once again clinging onto his camera. Why?
Because as
I explained:
Because Jin
knows it’s going to end, he desperately tries to cling onto the memories by
taking pictures or filming. That’s why he also has a camera in Euphoria.
Now to the
part that I find very interesting:
Look at all
those pictures below and focus on the colors:
Blue is
always focus of every scene. Why?
Dream is a blue mirage in the desert
This is why
in Euphoria, during those happy moments blue is always in the focus. Because
for Jungkook, the boys and these memories are a part of the blue mirage in the
desert in which he lives. His life as dry and lifeless as the desert before he
met the boys. And in that life the boys and the memories are that blue mirage.
They give him hope.
However,
for Jin these moments can’t be completely happy yet alone euphoric (remember
the lyrics: You’re looking at the same place with me with a pain in your eyes). Because Jin knows from the WINGS
and YNWA outcome of the story, that a dream like that – or that blue mirage –
is unattainable.
Moving on.
There might
not be much direct meaning behind this scene, but it keeps reminding me of
this:
That was
during the old prologue. V is alone in that picture and distances himself from
the boys.
But then in
Euphoria, while he once again sits alone, Namjoon appears behind him (special
pairs). I just thought that that was very cute and beautiful.
Moving on.
He looks so
cute ❤
But yes,
another scene that is similar to the old prologue. Namjoon is once again
approaching V.
THEN:
another interesting thing.
Suga is the
first one joining JK. Why? Because of the special pairs.
We see
something very important here. Jimin looks behind towards that corner.
Beeeeecausseeee:
That’s
where Jungkook was while they were spending time together in the hospital. During
a visit probably?
Since
they were there with him?
Jimin and
Jhope join them => once again special pair
In between
those scenes we see Jimin alone. I think its supposed to show the contrast
between these two situations.
V and rm
=> special pair
And lastly
Jin I RIPPED THE BIGGEST UWU THEY LOOK SO ADORABLE MAN I HOPE THEY STAY TOGETHER UNTIL THE DAY THEY PART FROM THIS WORLD MAN FUCK I LOVE THEM
MAN LOOK AT
THEM I SWEAR IM HAVING REAL FEELS OVER HERE MAN FUCK
☹ so cute. Also yeah I chose this pic because
there is a lot of blue and its supposed to hint at this:
Moving on.
From I NEED U
Do you see the contrast in colours? Euphoria’s
version is much more colourful and full of life whereas I need u is just dull.
That’s because as said before, Euphoria
represents the boys as a blue mirage that gives Jungkook hope while during I
NEED U these happy moments were a creation of Jin’s dream of wanting to be
happy, which in the end only deceived him into thinking those moments
(which were actually just memories) were real.
Anyway I just wanted to mention the similarity
or difference between I need u and euphoria
It seems
like they are a part of the sea. So beautiful man. Bus yes, once again, blue
mirage. And in contrary to that, another scene from I need U:
back at this bitch ass stank place :’)
At fist it
seems as if V is going to go to that jump thingy but it’s actually Jin.
While
everyone is cheering, V is the one not doing anything. He seems to be analysing
Jin or waiting to see what his next move will be. It seems as if V knows that place or he knows that that
place isn’t connected to anything good. He might know that something went wrong
there.
And now the
part that actually broke my heart:
In the old
prologue, he was filming and watching while V was jumping. And we know that V’s
jump in Jin’s dream world (old prologue) was a hint at V’s suicide in real
life. But back then, Jin only “watched” it happen.
And now, he
is interfering. He is actually doing something by going up there himself. And
then he records the boys because now that he has interfered, he won’t be
sitting and watching as one of them falls apart. And that – the fact that the
boys are unharmed – is the true happy moment for him, which is why he again
records that moment. He wants to cling onto it.
All of them
are being cute and dorky man, unbeknownst to the actual meaning behind him
standing there and all, but only V isn’t. It again seems as if V knows because he is the one who had jumped
from there. But as said before – it only seems
that way. We know that its not possible that V can remember what happened since
Jin erased everything by going back in time.
And this is
the exact same thing that’s shown in the next scenes.
The camera drops
and we see the scene from RUN. However, its played backwards??? Meaning that
that event has already become “undone” or that Jin has already gone back in
time and has erased it. These few scenes are proof that Jin has already gone
back in time to make everything better because V doesn’t Jump.
He knows
and remembers that he went back in time. He knows what would have happened (v
jumping) but he has interfered and now, instead of V Jumping, he is just
standing there, overcome with relief. Because he did something right.
And then at
the end, we see this:
“Hyung, is
that all? Don’t you have anything else you’re hiding from us?”
And right
after that:
Jungkook
getting hit by the car.
I think the
combination of those two scenes is supposed to mean that:
One of the
boys (I think its jungkook because otherwise it wouldn’t make that much sense)
knows that Jin time travels (“Hyung, is that all?”) and wants jin to tell them
about the other things he knows.
That being
the fact that Jungkook will get in a car crash. (“Don’t you have anything else
you’re hiding from us?”) Jin knows that. But I don’t think he shared that with
the others lol.
And this, my friends, is everything i have for Euphoria. I hope that it makes more sense now and i hope you all understood my explanation :’). Thank you all for reading! ❤